Page 101 of Only After We Met

“Not exactly” is very ambiguous.

And yeah: Dean said, “Love at first sight.”

From: Rhys Baker

To: Ginger Davies

Subject: How it is

I just don’t know, okay? I don’t know if we’re together.

Should I? Sometimes I don’t understand myself.

From: Ginger Davies

To: Rhys Baker

Subject: It’s easy

Are you in love with her?

From: Rhys Baker

To: Ginger Davies

Subject: RE: It’s easy

Shit, Ginger. Where do these questions come from?

I don’t know. I have no fucking idea.

From: Ginger Davies

To: Rhys Baker

Subject: RE: RE: It’s easy

Maybe you don’t know, but you should.

From: Rhys Baker

To: Ginger Davies

Subject: [No subject]

So let’s just accept that I’m an emotional disaster, and I don’t even know what being in love is. Are you so certain about it, Ginger? If it means fucking someone and spending a lot of time with them, then yes, I am.

From: Ginger Davies

To: Rhys Baker

Subject: Being in love

No, Rhys, it’s not just fucking someone and hanging out because you happen to be on tour with them. I’m not an expert, but I think being in love is more than that. It’s feeling a tingle in your stomach when you see them. Not being able to stop looking at them. Missing them even though they’re right there. Wanting to touch them at all hours, talking about any- and everything, feeling like you lose all sense of time when you’re together. Noticing the details. Wanting to know everything about them, even the stupid stuff. You know what, Rhys? I think it’s actually like being on the moon permanently. With a smile on your face. Without fear.

From: Rhys Baker

To: Ginger Davies