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“Is that what you think of yourself?” She asks me now, staring at me with such brilliant eyes that I’m almost dumbstruck by her question, “Because I can understand that. It’s not so easy opening yourself up in a relationship when you’re afraid of losing everything. I know that it is the case for me a lot of the time…”

I really don’t know what to say to her about that because she is really managing to drive me crazy with all of her questions. I wish that I could do a lot more but it’s like nothing is going the way that I need it to. I don’t want to give everything up because I have a bad feeling that it would end up being blown up in my face.

I can’t give that to her.

If I do, I have a bad feeling that I will really lose everything.

I have a mission to deal with.

“I just want to get to know you.” She murmurs softly, gazing into my eyes with those beautiful orbs that look like they are looking right through me like usual, “I don’t know if it’ll happen so easily, but I just want to continue to do it like this. I just want to see what kind of person that you really are, Hayden.”

I don’t know what to say to all of that, feeling like my stomach is going to drop. When I look at her, I know I’m content with being happy with her. I’m not going to dare let anything hurt her because although Andrew is a bad man, I know that she isn’t. She doesn’t deserve anything that he has done to her, and it is pretty clear that everything that he has done so far is enough to drive me nuts.

I guess I better keep him at a distance before it really ends up getting really shitty.

I don’t know what she would say if she learned the truth about me.

About what kind of person I truly am.

“I’m nothing special.” I assure her finally, seeing how it looks like she doesn’t believe me, “Trust me, it’s pretty obvious that I’m never going to be anything to you. You might like me, but I can assure you that it’s not going to make you happy. I think the best thing that you should do is find someone else to be curious about… I don’t deserve you.”

Her eyebrows furrow and it’s like she doesn’t know what to say to what I’m saying. It’s the best thing for me to do when I’m trying to keep the distance between us. It’s pretty obvious that everything that has happened so far is enough to draw us even closer.

I can’t allow myself to get close to her, it would be the worst thing that I do.

I know I would end up losing a lot more and I can’t do that.

I won’t allow myself to be ruined by it either.

“Let’s have a nice dinner and go from there.” I murmur softly, seeing how her expression falls slightly, “Let’s go.”

I just hope that she can forgive me for being an asshole to her right now. This is all for the best and I’m not going to let anything change. This is for the best.

Chapter Six

Claire

It is driving me crazy.

I don’t understand why Hayden is trying to keep me at a distance because truthfully, it is pissing me off more than anything. I’ve felt like murdering him more than just one time, wanting to figure out where this is going between us. I know that he feels a lot towards me, but nothing is making sense when he is treating me like I’m gum on the bottom of his shoe.

Like he truly doesn’t care about me.

Like he wants to do a lot more with me.

I have no idea what is going to come next, but I am trying to think about it. As we are finishing eating, our date will be coming to an end, and I wouldn’t be able to do anything else about it. Just the notion is enough to make my stomach churn with nerves because I want him to be a lot closer to me. I want to make sure that he knows how much I need him and how I won’t let anything stand in my way of achieving it.

Not even him.

“That was really nice.” I finally speak up, hoping that I don’t sound too nuts, “I had a wonderful time having dinner with you, Hayden, I do hope that we will get to do this again.”

His lips curve into a beautiful smile as he extends his hand to me, “I will admit, it was a nice dinner, and I don’t think that I can truly complain. I got to be here with a beautiful woman as well so that was even better. I just hope that you felt the same way that I did.”

I don’t know what to say to him right now because I want to give him my whole heart and I don’t want anything else standing in my way. I have never felt this intensely about something in my entire life and I don’t want it to end, that is the biggest thing. The gentleness of his smile and how he looks at me is enough to make me feel like there’s a lot more that I can do.

I couldn’t be sure what might come from it, but I do know what I want and what I long for.

I’m not entirely certain if anything will come from it but I do know that I’m not going to give up so easily. I don’t care what he says right now about it because I’m not going to be one to just give up already.