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He is dressed really nice, much more than I expected to see. Just the sight is enough to make my heart almost skip a beat, longing for a lot more. It’s like nothing I have ever experienced before, craving to pull him closer. I don’t think I have ever felt this needy about something, but I really want to do a lot more because it’s pretty obvious that he is going to be completely mine.

That’s all that I want to do right now.

That's all that I can think about.

“You look so handsome.” I confess to him softly, seeing how his eyes darken, “Are you ready to go?”

His lips curve into a small smile, “yep, let’s go then.”

I just hope I can get through this without going too crazy.

Chapter Five

Hayden

“Wow, I have always wanted to go here.” Claire murmurs as she is looking around the fancy restaurant, making me relax a little bit now because I was quite content with her being happy, “I mean truthfully, I didn’t know what we were going to do but this is better than I imagined. It’s like you know me, Hayden.”

She gives me such a beautiful smile that makes my heart feel like it’s going to beat right out of my chest. It is nothing that I have ever felt before, longing to bring her much closer and not dare let anything else stand in my way.

Placing my hand on the small of her back, seeing how she looks up at me with wide eyes, I guide her as the host leads us to our table. It is actually a little more packed than I thought it would be but I’m not going to complain about it one bit. When I look at her, all I can think about is how I’m trying to make sure that she is going to be fine with whatever comes from this.

I didn’t want to do anything too crazy where we would end up being alone.

I didn’t trust myself.

I didn’t want to have that chance to fall hard for her and end up loving her. It’s like nothing I have ever felt before, and I keep thinking about what I might end up doing next to her. When I look at her, it’s a beautiful sight that makes my stomach churn because it’s almost a way that makes my stomach churn nervously.

I have never felt something like this in my entire life.

It is driving me crazy.

Holding her chair back for her, I wait patiently as she ends up sitting down and I push her in. I’m very aware that I am definitely being a lot more romantic than I should be, but I want to do whatever I can to make sure that she is content. I don’t want to do anything to ruin this which could easily turn around and be destroyed with the flip of a hat.

I long to do a lot more, that much I have already figured out and I’m hoping for a lot more. Sitting across from her, I notice how she is looking at me and it is enough to make me feel weird. Clearing my throat, I just offer her a small smile because I’m trying to keep the peace. I don’t want anything to get ruined if I’m being honest because it would be the worst thing when it comes to Andrew.

His daughter is his everything, I would be an idiot if I didn’t let her down gently.

“I’m sorry.” She suddenly apologizes to me, making me look up at her with confusion because I have no idea why she is apologizing, “I kind of just pushed my feelings onto you and I didn’t think about how this could affect you. If things go bad between us, it could cause some rifts with my dad, right?”

Something like that.

“I feel the connection.” I decide to admit to her, thinking that maybe she will actually listen to me for once, “but unfortunately that’s not always good enough. I wish that we could do it in acompletely different way, but I know it’s not going to be what we need. It’s going to be where we end up going with it. Okay.”

My stomach is churning with nerves because I hate having to reject.

This is not something that I wanted to do but I didn’t have much of a choice. If I gave her the time of day, it could mean that I’m interested and then it really wouldn’t matter. I couldn’t do that because she would honestly just get her heart broken. I don’t care if I’m just supposed to be an asshole or not, I’m not that kind of person. I’m never going to let it happen like that.

If I do that, I just know that it’s not going to go the way that I want it to.

I have to approach this delicately.

If I don’t, it’ll be blown up in my face.

“Have you ever dated before?” She suddenly asks me, making me raise an eyebrow at her with confusion because I have no clue why that even matters, “because to me, it really doesn’t seem like you have. You are doing a lot for me, yes, but it’s pretty clear that everything that you’re saying is because you’re afraid. You are afraid of getting attached to me, aren't you?”

I wish that I could say a lot more to her, but I don’t know how to break all of this to her. I have been trying to make sure that she will be safe and content, but I also know there is a limit. If I let her win, it’s going to be the unfortunate reality that I will end up losing everything. I won’t be able to do things this way if she learns my secrets.

“I have dated a little bit but nothing serious.” I admit to her finally, wondering why I’m even telling her this, “but truthfully, I wouldn’t do it again like that. The whole dating life is a bit of a sham, and I can really say that it’s not the best thing to look forward to. You’ll just end up getting your heart broken when you keep giving yourself to someone who doesn’t deserve it.”