Page 32 of Chasing Her (Dark Love 3)

“I’m staying with Eric. You need to sort yourself out, Julian. There’s only one road you’re heading down, and I’m telling you, it’s a dead end.” He stops by the kitchen counter and throws me an envelope. “And here, an eviction notice.” He slams the door behind him.

I am officially alone.

After tonight’s events, there’s nothing I want to do more than climb into a hole and rot away, but instead, I head to my medicine cabinet and find my sleeping pills.

Sleeping pills or call my dealer.

For tonight, the pills win, but for how much longer?

Frankly, I have no idea.

***

The room is dark, the light fighting its way in.

The urge, the craving, it devours me.

Alone, I hear the gentle tap on my door, gentle, yet it startles me.

I jump anxiously. It’s the monster who lurks under my bed, but he’s on the other side of the door.

Like a frightened child, I open it and succumb to the power he holds over me.

He opens his hand, and I see the light illuminating the dark walls. My senses, there’s a frenzy within me, taunting and teasing me, and the more it consumes me, I feel myself weaken.

I hand over the last of my money—my rent money.

And like a thief in the night, he disappears.

And I’m alone again with the devil laced in white.

It’s all I have now.

No Chelsea.

No Charlie.

And I need to survive, don’t I?

I’m like venom. I hurt those around me, including myself.

I walk to the table and lay the white lace carefully in a line. I know the drill. I think about it every second of every day.

I lean down, inches away from euphoria sweeping over me. But I feel a touch, a brush of a hand over my shoulder. I’m hallucinating, I know I’m alone. I bend down again, and the feeling repeats.

I don’t look behind me. Instead, I close my eyes allowing my senses to focus.

There’s a cool breeze in the room, but the windows are shut.

“In the darkness, our savior will find us. It will drive us into the light.”

The voices, I hear them.

“In our weakness of times, find the strength, it lurks behind the shadows, but it’s watching, it is waiting to be asked for help.”

I have officially gone crazy.

“Those who live in the light only know the truth to living in the darkness. I am here, I’m watching over you, I am guiding you. Be still, hear my words. The fallen will continue to fall without a savior amongst them.”