Page 47 of Only After We Met

Those types of relationships aren’t my thing, so maybe there’s something positive in my present situation. Otherwise I might run the risk of fucking things up with someone who matters to me.

From: Ginger Davies

To: Rhys Baker

Subject: Curiosity

Why aren’t they your “thing”?

So I was right from the beginning. You’re a one-night stand kind of guy. So predictable, Rhys. You’ve let me down.

From: Rhys Baker

To: Ginger Davies

Subject: Expectations

What did you expect, Ginger?

From: Ginger Davies

To: Rhys Baker

Subject: RE: Expectations

Nothing and everything. I didn’t expect you to be one of those guys who’s allergic to commitment, who hides behind that to amuse himself with spending the night with girls. Not that there’s something wrong with that—don’t misunderstand me. I’m not looking for anything serious either, but that’s not a rule or a principle; it’s just what I’m into right now.

What I do know is, a true relationship requires effort and sacrifice. Whereas a random fuck means not thinking and just letting yourself go. And those two things aren’t compatible.

From: Rhys Baker

To: Ginger Davies

Subject: …

Did you ever stop to think that something that requires “effort andsacrifice” is already a problem? I don’t understand why we should impose things on ourselves that don’t make us happy. Life would be way easier if we just felt and lived day to day without pressure, without having to follow the herd down this or that road.

From: Ginger Davies

To: Rhys Baker

Subject: RE: …

Are you calling me a sheep?

From: Rhys Baker

To: Ginger Davies

Subject: RE: RE: …

I’ve painted myself into a corner, right? Whatever I say, you’re going to get mad. So to hell with it, I’m risking it all. Maybe I am sometimes kind of a “snail,” but you’re a little bit of a “sheep” too.

From: Rhys Baker

To: Ginger Davies

Subject: Confirmation