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From: Rhys Baker
To: Ginger Davies
Subject: Truce
How long are we going to go without talking, Ginger? We need a truce. Three weeks is too long. I miss you. And I know you miss me. Don’t make me beg. Besides, I’ve got stuff to tell you.
From: Rhys Baker
To: Ginger Davies
Subject: Hurray!
Happy friendiversary! Even if right now I don’t know whether you want to be my friend. Come on, Ginger. I might have been a jerk on New Year’s Eve, but you and I need to patch things up. Dragging it on will just make things worse. Say something.
From: Ginger Davies
To: Rhys Baker
Subject: Truth
You say youmighthave been an idiot. Because you can’t even remember, right? Of course I miss you, Rhys. You already know that. The same way you knew mentioning our friendiversary would make me go soft. But I can’t pretend it doesn’t hurt me to see where your life is leading you. I don’t get it. You have everything you need to be happy.
From: Rhys Baker
To: Ginger Davies
Subject: RE: Truth
Ginger, don’t be like that. This has nothing to do with happiness. What happened was just a moment, like lots of others. Let’s forget about it, okay? If it makes you less angry, I should let you know I haven’t gone out partying in weeks and haven’t hooked up with anyone at all. I’m busy with something way more important. I’ve been talking to Logan again. You were right. When you asked me about him last month, I realized he was a good guy and I’d just left him hanging. So it turns out he’s going to come see me for a few days in a couple of weeks. He says he needs to clear his head, and this way we can spend some time together.
Are you happy? I hope so.
Because I have this feeling I keep fucking things up. And Ifeel like shit, Ginger, but when I’m doing it, I don’t know, it’s like I don’t realize it. Or maybe I do. But not in the moment. In the moment, I don’t feel anything. Then all at once, it comes up on me. The guilt. And I can barely breathe.
What’s happening to us? Why can’t we stop arguing?
From: Ginger Davies
To: Rhys Baker
Subject: Okay…
Fine, Rhys. I’m tired of us being mad all the time lately too, but you know, you matter to me, and I can’t just keep my mouth shut when I feel like you’re running in the wrong direction.
I’m glad Logan’s going to see you; it’s always good to catch up with old friends. Don’t leave me hanging. I want to know what you’re busy with right now. I have a lot to tell you too. A lot. But you first.
From: Rhys Baker
To: Ginger Davies
Subject: Here goes
Fine, I won’t beat around the bush.
I’m going to record an album!