Page 106 of I Am Sin

But take sex out of the equation, and he’s still occupying my thoughts. I actually care about the guy.

I sigh, strip my clothes off, and throw them in my hamper. I step into the warm, inviting tub.

I sink my entire body into the water, turn on the jets, close my eyes, and try to relax.

My sister-in-law Ashley, who’s married to my older brother Dale, taught me this relaxation technique once. She has something called synesthesia, where she sees colors for sounds and sounds for colors and a bunch of other stuff that I don’t understand, so this probably works a lot better for her.

I begin by breathing deeply in and visualizing the dark red of my root chakra at the base of my spine that represents foundation and grounding, our connection to the earth. Once I feel secure in the dark red, I change the color in my mind to my sacral chakra, which is represented by the color orange and is located in my lower abdomen, below my belly button. According to Ashley, this is a very important chakra for me because it represents creativity.

Once I see the red and the orange vividly, I move upward to my solar plexus chakra, which is yellow. This is in the upper abdomen, below the rib cage, and is linked to self-confidence and self-esteem.

Red, orange, yellow.

I repeat the colors in my mind, visualize each of them moving up my body.

I move on to the heart chakra, which is green. Ashley says this one is pink for her because green isn’t the color of the heart. I prefer to use green so the colors go in the order of the rainbow. Makes more sense to me.

Red, orange, yellow, green.

Red, orange, yellow, green.

Onward to the throat chakra, which is blue and linked to communication and authenticity.

This is where I need help. How am I going to communicate to Rod that his team made a huge mistake on that project? And how am I going to communicate about…well,anythingwith Dragon?

No.

Not thinking about that now.

Red, orange, yellow, green, blue.

Breathe in, breathe out.

Breathe in…red, orange, yellow, green, blue…

Then the third eye, and this is where it gets slightly weird for me because sometimes I actually think I’m seeing something from that third eye, even though my eyes are closed. The third eye is indigo, that deep blue that hovers between blue and purple.

Here lies my intuition, and I’m going to need that tomorrow.

Hell, I need that with Dragon as well.

I breathe in, visualize all the colors from red to indigo flowing up my body, through all my chakras, until I get to the final one.

The crown chakra in the top of my head. It’s violet, and it represents spirituality and enlightenment.

Then I lie there, my chakras open, and this time, I breathe in and out, breathing in a pink haze of comfort, and breathing out the black smoke of negativity.

The whole process takes about ten minutes, and I concentrate on all that’s good in my life.

I’ve got what I’ve always wanted.

I’m an architect at the top firm in Denver.

It’s possible I can work on the project of my dreams.

My chakras are opened, I’m relaxed, and I let myself enjoy the fact that my life is exactly where I want it.

Breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out…