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And I could only hope we all survived this powder keg before our emotions got the best of us.

Chapter Ten

Lindsay

Iwas going to strangle someone.

Either that, or I was going to break out a new tap and waterboard them with beer.

All I wanted was a moment alone, but no matter where I went there was always someone there. Someone who I couldn’t give them what they needed.

And the worst part, is that they were all being so fucking nice.

Sure, we were all a bit sleep deprived, but all the guys were going out of their way to make sure I had everything I needed.

After the first night, at Spencer’s suggestion, we combined our camping equipment together, making a comfier pallet to sleep on. Of course, Ollie, the snuggle bug had ended up on Spencer’s chest with his arm wrapped around me where the alpha had tucked me into his side.

I would have protested, but Ollie finally looked peaceful and I couldn’t break that.

Dustin had taken to sleeping on the other side of me while Adam hovered on the other side of Spencer.

It had been fourlongdays and we were still snowed in. I honestly didn’t know how much more I could take. Namely because of Adam.

“Hey, angel, could you do me a favor and grab me a water from the storage room please?” Spencer asked.

“Sure,” I said, jumping at the excuse to escape the heated stare Adam had been branding me with the entire time.

I wasn’t sure how quickly Spencer needed the water bottle, but I found myself grabbing one and then just slipping down, sitting on the floor in the quiet for a moment.

The lantern I took with me provided enough light to see, so I was content to just exist alone for as long as I could get away with it.

I leaned my head back against a stack of boxes and let out a long breath.

At least no one followed me. My thoughts were company enough.

My mind was a hot mess of conflicted thoughts. On one hand, I was happy to have the guys all in one place, and even I could admit how right it felt with us all together.

Then there was the tension. Ollie, Spencer, and I had something brewing that Spencer wasn’t letting me run from. Adam and Dustin both wanted me, and I wasn’t sure that I could give them what they needed.

Again, I wasn’t an omega, and the only omega in our pack was their brother. I wasn’t naive enough to assume they wouldn’t find an omega.

The thought of anyone else joining us made my stomach turn. I wasn’t sure I could live with it if they did find someone they wanted more than me.

The alternative was leaving them behind, and that thought had my chest aching. No matter how much I considered pushingthem away, they were still a huge part of my life, and selfishly, I wanted them there.

I couldn’t just let them go. As much as I kept telling myself we could remain friends, it was becoming increasingly clear that was a pipedream.

The heart wants what the heart wants, and my heart wants them—all of them.

I closed my eyes and bit back a groan as heavy footsteps moved into the storage room. Was some alone time to brood too much to ask?

“Are you all right in here?” Adam asked gently. He didn’t hesitate to slip down to the ground next to me.

Our bodies were close enough that I could feel his warmth, which was kind of nice since it was getting pretty chilly in here, but it was his scent in this small space that was killing me slowly. The caramel-coffee scent was bitter, sweet, and rich. It tempted me far too often to give in and right now, I was on the cusp of it.

Before I could open my mouth to answer, the door slammed shut and the lock clicked.

“What the fuck?” I gasped, jumping up and going to the door. The door groaned as I jiggled the handle but it was to no avail.