Page 19 of Blizzards and Brews

“Firefly,” he said softly. “We can’t avoid this conversation any longer. Things are changing.”

“I know,” I said as I finally met his eyes.

He was already being far more patient than I deserved.

“We’re going to say our piece. Just… let us get this out first, okay?” he asked. The way he was begging me to hear them out had me nodding along.

“We’ve tried really hard not to push you,” Ollie admitted. I turned to him and he was giving me a hopeful smile, his hand seeking mine out and twining our fingers together.

Before I could open my mouth to reassure him, Adam was forging ahead.

“I’m done waiting, Lindsay. We’re making our intentions known. We want you. Hell, I’ve wanted you from the moment I met you and nothing has changed other than how much I wish you were mine.”

“We made a room for you here, and it’s still yours. It isn’t just a passing phase, Linds,” Dustin added. “We’ve known you all of our lives and we know what we want, that isn’t going to change.”

My chest ached. They had expected me to move in once the house was finished and when I declined, it had hurt them. Though, they never made me feel guilty about it, which proved what good men they were. They just wanted me to be happy.

They also wanted me to be theirs.

I had my own reservations and they were logical… but they didn’t seem to care. I couldn’t tie them to me when I knew I wasn’t going to be able to share my mates with an omega.

Ollie withstanding. He was different, we had our own connection. That didn’t mean I could give them what they needed, though.

Adam needed an omega still, Spencer being here didn’t change that.

The idea of giving in was tempting. Far too tempting. But I couldn’t do that to them, and I wouldn’t do that to me.

I couldn’t stand to finally give into the love I held in my heart only for it to be ripped away when reality set in. When Adam went into a rut and I couldn’t give him relief, or he smelled someone else on the sidewalk and found an omega. When Dustin would grow to resent me for seeing what I was putting his brothers through.

Spencer gave me a chance with Ollie, but it would be an insult to us both if that’s what finally made me give in. He mattered, for sure he mattered, but I needed to make this choice based on my relationship with the triplets. Not a new person that made me consider the possibility.

“I can see you fighting this in your head,” Dustin said gently as he scooted closer, his arm lining up with mine. “It won’t change how we feel.”

“It won’t,” Adam agreed firmly. “And I’m not holding myself back anymore, firefly. I’m going to show you how good we can be together. We’re pack. We got off track over the years, let you push us away, and we’re not going to keep doing that. Not now.”

“What about Spencer?” I finally asked, not able to stay quiet anymore. If they wanted to talk about pack, he needed to be included in the conversation. Especially since Ollie was his scent-matched mate.

“He messaged me,” Ollie said, showing us the phone in his hand. “I want to get to know him. We’re strangers, but he makes me feel things I only feel with you, Lindsay.”

“I’m happy for you Ollie,” I told him. “Truly. You deserve an alpha of your own that can give you the love you deserve.”

“He’s part of this, I can’t change that,” Adam said, almost reluctantly. “I’m not sure what that looks like but I’ll always put you first, firefly.”

“Don’t say anything tonight,” Dustin said. “We’ve hit you with a lot to think about and I know you need to process it.”

“Just know, we’re here and our plan is to winyouover,” Ollie finished as he pulled me closer and turned the TV back on. I melted into his arms and focused on the TV, sucking in greedy breaths of his caramel-marshmallow scent. Though, I didn’t really catch any of the show.

My head was in other places.

Part of me could see myself spending my life here with them and Spencer. Morning breakfast and late-night movies. Cuddles on the couch and quiet coffee with Adam. Dustin and I taking drives to get away. I wasn’t sure what Spencer’s quirks were, but I couldn’t picture any of this without him in it as well.

In my heart, I knew they were mine, but I still couldn’t fix what was holding me back. I’d spent years outrunning it and now they were done holding back.

Would it change anything?

I wasn’t sure it could.

Chapter Eight